The Dawn of a New Day!

Well, this is a new day for me. I know that the Lord has been working on my heart for weeks now. I am getting closer to bringing this chapter to a close and my quest for health is becoming a reality that I can almost touch and feel inside me. No, the outside is not there yet, but it is coming. It starts within first. This will be for me and no one else. I have been so busy in my life trying to make me better for everyone else..you know the people I am talking about...the ones that only accept the "outside" appearance of others. They are shallow people and have their own demons they need to deal with. I will no longer put myself to the back burner. I was believing the lies of "I am not good enough". What a crock!


This week has been a week of revelations. I know that I cannot continue with the same behaviors and expect different results. I must make different choices if I want to succeed in my quest for health. This is NOT about losing weight. It is about loving myself, getting healthy, and being able to serve the Lord on this earth until He calls me home. I am exhausted of having to deal with everyone else's opinion of me and my weight.

My BFF said something to me today that really hit home. She told me that each time I did the fast and tried/did lose weight I was doing it for everyone else. Always thinking my family would only accept me as my thinner self. What a crock that was then and is now! Thin or fat, my family was always judging me, trying to control me, not wanting to hear the truth of our past. I was always trying to fix the "outside" and the "inside" was not there yet with the healing. The healing of the wounds have progressed and are no longer bleeding, no longer gaping wounds but a few scabs and the skin is closed and healing. This is my time!

This woman and I are very connected and are soul sisters. She also said that I am not the same person I was when I did the fasting programs where I lost over 100 pounds each time. I don't think the same, I don't approach life the same. This time it needs to be for me. I am so grateful that I have genuine people in my life that love me for who I am today, yesterday and will love me tomorrow. They don't see my weight. They see ME! The person I am and the person they love. I love my sisterhood of friends! I don't know where I would be without them. When she told me to start this blog in December 2008 she told me to make this about me and no one else. That is what I share on here so that I can perhaps help others through my journey into health so that they too can know how important they are to God and their purpose on this earth.

I see myself thin and healthy. That is the picture you see and that is the person I am inside. I will see this woman again in real life and in the mirror. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! I am fearfully and wonderfully made and my Heavenly Father loves me now, then, and forever!